Scattered Feelings

He listens to my favourite band, It was one of the first things we talked about- It was one of the first things I liked about him. I feel like I know him, His hands look familiar to me, I feel like I know them- Could they be the one I've been seeing in my dreams? I don't know yet but He feels like the ocean I wanna drown in- Find more ways to indulge in and write hymns. He's so very refreshing, I haven't found any red flags so far- Could be due to the butterflies, atleast that what it seems. Paranoia and C-PTSD Are making me ask myself- Have I ever allowed anyone to have this much power over me? I'm losing myself completely, I think I just found my younger self- He reminds me of the poems I wrote before I even met him. Cernunnos is asking me to stay, He is telling me to hold on- I'm bored already, I told him, "slow burns aren't really my thing." I'm happy with where I am now, But I don't even know where I really want to be- Kinda don't even wanna know, I'm better than I've ever been. Taking my heart shaped sunglasses off, To cherish the ride up to north, I won't mind if it hurts when I fall- I feel like I'm on wellbutrin.