Sans Compass

Like a fish out of the water

you caught me by surprise

and

my mind a continual motion machine

perpetuates my nervousness

and endorphins

push through my veins like

an excitatory Water Park.

Initially when I began to speak to you it was  like going going down the waterslide with
the 50 foot drop… I always was afraid of heights.

But sometimes there is that moment in your life. Where you have to face the Diving board.

You Know the one where you always have to take a running start….. to clear your mind of
the fact that you could belly Flop.

Who knew it could be so difficult to get the courage to leap before you look

To be timid is not within my nature yet

I pace back and forth..

Pick up the phone,  put it back down.

Curse at myself for being such a coward.

What the hell is this all about??

Am I stuck in  Growing Pains an overly innocent sitcom from the 1980s

Oh my god………..

I am meandering. Since when did I meander?

Sans compass

how should I route myself from avoiding the

awkward conversation

Because there are always two options

Either you could come out on top like at the Showtime at the Apollo

Or you can kiss your chances goodbye if you try to produce

some awfully terrible retorts for banter

Ohhh Lord… Does this mean.. the distinct change in personality…. means……

I have a Crush?

The word brings back such childhood memories

Rewinding back through time, like an old cassette deck tape

Buzzing faster then the beat of a bumblebee's wing

I am back to where I began.

Sans Compass

No that can’t be it

I guess I have to

Really look at myself in the mirror

pull back the hair out of my eyes, and

know that inside of my chest wall

beats my wildcat heart entity.

I will walk towards you fearlessly.

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