Sans Compass

Like a fish out of the water you caught me by surprise and my mind a continual motion machine perpetuates my nervousness and endorphins push through my veins like an excitatory Water Park. Initially when I began to speak to you it was like going going down the waterslide with the 50 foot drop… I always was afraid of heights. But sometimes there is that moment in your life. Where you have to face the Diving board. You Know the one where you always have to take a running start….. to clear your mind of the fact that you could belly Flop. Who knew it could be so difficult to get the courage to leap before you look To be timid is not within my nature yet I pace back and forth.. Pick up the phone, put it back down. Curse at myself for being such a coward. What the hell is this all about?? Am I stuck in Growing Pains an overly innocent sitcom from the 1980s Oh my god……….. I am meandering. Since when did I meander? Sans compass how should I route myself from avoiding the awkward conversation Because there are always two options Either you could come out on top like at the Showtime at the Apollo Or you can kiss your chances goodbye if you try to produce some awfully terrible retorts for banter Ohhh Lord… Does this mean.. the distinct change in personality…. means…… I have a Crush? The word brings back such childhood memories Rewinding back through time, like an old cassette deck tape Buzzing faster then the beat of a bumblebee's wing I am back to where I began. Sans Compass No that can’t be it I guess I have to Really look at myself in the mirror pull back the hair out of my eyes, and know that inside of my chest wall beats my wildcat heart entity. I will walk towards you fearlessly.