Rope

As i watch you leave My hands are tied, by ropes you can't see The rope you let go of. I am suffering, I can't breathe I don't have this under control I don't know what to do The one who made my life easy Is no more by my side. Alone on this boat, you were supposed to help me ride. There have been days, i've died laughing There have been days i've wept There have been nights ,endless. I miss your smile, the way you caress Why did you lie? I don't know You expected flowers from a seed you didn't sow As I sit down, writing, tears blurring what I see I can't help but think about what we could be. But You needed to leave, it was necessary I can't stop but tell myself, it's temporary (mood changes) I don't want to let you take my mind space You don't deserve it You've hurt me in ways, you don't know The toxicity of your presence, didn't let me grow Its time to wipe the tears, its time to let go of the rope, No expectations, no hope.