Revised "the Bitter End"

where did love go
when it left the even flow
of having and not having
the romance and the unknown

when the one that slept beside me
no longer seems beside me
and arguments have left me all alone
with my misdeeds, mistakes and groans

and hideous memories take hold
cruelties and vicious words were thrown
and the point of no return has been past
it was the final argument, surely the last

when last pleas have been wept
and final blows have been dealt
truly there is no hope for
the one with whom for years i slept
and in my loneliest hours i wept
are my feelings something inept
to the laws of God

where is justice now
it's vengeance must compensate
somehow
but silent are the wheels of justice
and unfair the time is to repair
the injustice i have done

sleep. rest while my fight is down
for surely if you were awake i would clown
but moments have past when i wish
the old you was around
that part of you that my love could arouse

sleep and dream of someplace better
where my bitterness is from you sheltered
safe from words that criticize
opinions that epitomize
and hide behind the disguise
of hatred and despise

against love our realities compromised
without success visualized
have come unfortunately to realize
our doom and demise

farewell, not so distant past
hello despair at last
with hearty destain we crash
with the ever remembered
love of the past
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Babcock Avatar
April 25, 2009 at 10:22 PM
I really got behind in my reading but am catching up. Deep emotion in this poem. Phyl
Parish Avatar
April 3, 2009 at 5:22 PM
Excellent revision John. I think I do like this one a little better...
George   Avatar
April 2, 2009 at 1:35 AM
Heartwrenching emotion, John. Simply great writing. Also, I want to sincerely thank you for all your kind comments on my writing. It means so much to me. Love, lainie
Chircop Avatar
March 21, 2009 at 12:05 AM
how deeply touching,a reality to many,but my friend forget the past and live the present,surely you be happy again,give it time
Townsend Avatar
March 17, 2009 at 10:36 PM
This is pure soul. You write with true passion and heart. It is amazing how your words soak so deeply into my heart as I relate to what you write. Keep writing and healing! Smiles from Lolita
Guzzi Avatar
March 16, 2009 at 2:19 PM
Big smile! Light & Love
Bowen Avatar
March 15, 2009 at 12:28 PM
John my friend of reason and painful heartache...this is a very open wounded animal...and it is couragous and brave of you to examine your flaws and heartmind and share it with the soup! I feel for you, and interpreted a powerlessness and fear in this write...one of losing a love as fine as you could describe it. You are very talented and gifted to be able to reflect so trepedatiously and still end it with so much dignity and grace! Creative & Brilliant work. One to read over again! janers
Winter Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 5:37 AM
This got to me again. Have not checked out where you've changed it. Still love it. Awesome. Love, Shar
Rhinem Avatar
March 12, 2009 at 8:12 PM
The Apostal Paul once wrote by The Hand of God! In Philippians 3:12-14:) "One thing I never do-I never look back"~Smile....I know, much easier said than done!? Hello My Talented & Beautiful Brother John Loving III~I hope that life has been treating You wonderfully!!? This was a very heartful, soulful and splendidly expressed write of love and reflection!!!~" Wonderful Releasing & Giving John~My Love Always To 'You & Your Loves,' John!!!":)
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