Revelation Repeated

Awareness floods my veins The eyes are open now Truth fills the soul, Rushes into the hidden corners Revelations fall into place Snap to attention Like dominoes or perfect solitaire Razors chilled to freezing Slice my mind, Galvanize my sight While ice claws my lungs--- Breath slowing to a ragged rattle, I can't think, I can only write my reactions To my crucifixion At your unwitting hands--- Sometimes the pain isn't so blatant. Sometimes it's subtle shadings, Intricate turnings of pink--- Lace bonds that constrict Gently, slowly about the heart... Unnoticed until they've caused pain for some time. By then they've cut too deeply, Become too embedded to remove. Don't get me wrong--- In some veiled, perverse way, I enjoy it--- I enjoy learning nothing From my mistakes---