Return To Myself

Return to myself She was alone and alone And she was so happy being alone And she was so blissful being alone And she was so happy with her attitude of life In her solitude; But I only broke her solitude And connected her to a companionship And she was dragged by that Camaraderie into its life And made her to feel it as joy of life; Hence she forgot her life And she even forgot herself And also forgot her solitude And was completely possessed by that companion With the love in which she was seized; And days, years, ages passed by And she has been in that life till now In that hibernation, in that hallucination In that delusion. And in that mirage In which I have fixed her with my thoughts; And now she woke up from herself And opened her eyes and her senses And now she doesn't see her companion Which she has felt as spirit of her life Who slain her and deserted her in Hell; And she doesn't know that It was my entire mind which ruined her life And she’s just alive like a stone And just like a being without life And now I realized my stupid mistake; And now I am wanting her back And I want to make her alone And want to get her back to her solitude So I started treating her lesion to keep Her alive and to keep her alone And to connect her to her solitude In which I and she can live In our infinite and unique love Without which I can’t live And can’t breathe And can’t exist; So I’m recreating her as my life And without me she can’t live As I can make out from her hollow life And can make out from her silent prayers To my mind from her moaning heart; I was so foolish punished by handing Her over all these lives to the devil in my mind And I’m now in search of my life By speaking to my heart With language of my soul And soothing her with my love; Now we could live together in her loneliness And in her solitude, and in that real world As divine beings of love and the true life And live our life at the fullest Till we exhaust in the journey of our love; © Ramakrishna Chowdary Jasti 05Aug2014