Restless, Helpless

it starts with wandering thoughts here it is; panic creeps in flooding like a hurricane. my throat gets tight; i can't breathe; my heart, it pounds like a drum. then i feel it in my gut and i know what i'm in for: ‘nother restless, helpless night stuck inside of my own head. took a pill but still i can't turn down the sounds and voices. they scream for me to notice. i plug my ears, hope for sleep, it doesn't come, can't succumb so i write this poem in bed restless; helpless once again.