Requiem of Gold and Silver

We've been taking potshots since December And finally we snuffed out all the embers You said you would never be the same again I said I would never be the same again Looks like we're both some filthy liars Only difference is I haven't started new fires I shouldn't be upset that you've healed so quickly But the thought of you with someone else has me sickly I've only missed you when it's midnight Only with my regrets under the streetlights I only miss the way you felt me, knew the real me When I'm lying, I feel filthy Looking at the sky, it's rich and golden Then how come in this silver room, I'm frozen? I knew from the start I did you dirty Even when I was true I made you worry I finally got the freedom that I wanted The feeling of elation has been blunted Not much to this world when it's all for me But I know deep in my heart this is how it should be Still I miss you when it's midnight When my heart is heavy but my bed's light And I miss the way you'd feel me, set my soul free You'd trust me, I feel filthy The thought of someone else with you is crushing But I knew from the start you'd be blushing With someone who's better for you on top Pressing down while you moan out "please, don't stop" I know you're much happier without me I knew that's the way that it should be The process of writing this is so selfish When, to me, you've been nothing but selfless Do I only miss the memory? Every day I was with you was crushing But I still miss the way you'd feel me, know the real me And I ruined it, made it filthy And it's better there without me, right?