Repressed But Wanting

Repressed by a life of guilt and shame choices I've made find it hard to find another to blame. The walls that I build and the tears on my back make running impossible, the strength I lack. Certainty is certainly all that I know. Certainty is knowing I'll reap what I sow. To hurt another is the last I would do if it meant I could run, to find another, be true. Repressed by a life of guilt and shame the life I had feared is all that remains. Thinking of a life of peace and mind makes living this life a lie undefined. The undying knowledge of this loveless life keeps me wrapped in confusion, bitterness, and strife. Certainty is knowing what I already know that a life with you is undeniably my all time low. Repressed by a life of guilt and shame the knowledge that tomorrow could bring the rain... Rain to me is much better than sun for it makes me feel revived, refreshed and done. To find another and give it my all is what I desire, no matter the fear of the fall. To grow in another and happiness build a life of certainty, of a veracious love, fulfilled.