Religion a Lie?

When I was young I did not know you, thoughts were positive that I was a good person You came into my life, I started second guessing myself "Maybe I wasn't such a good person" I thought Now I truly believe in you, and I know faithfully that you exist in everything I'm told I'm a sinner, a killer, weak and insignificant I question is it better to know you Or to be ignorant Why do those closest to you suffer?