Regret River

When I think of regret, its like a very cold river At first I was ankle deep, now neck-in my body shiver How fast I'm being pulled by the current adds to my torment Pity, Revulsion, Anger came to surface after years of being dormant In order to survive Myself I must revive My soul I can no longer disguise Nor hide The River of Regret is now in high tide A rock of guilt just crashed into my side It is a deadly sin to feel pride So I counter it by feeling arrogance inside Tired of running from pain, I slow my pace and my stride The end of the race, I come face to face with myself My heart will never be advertised on a shelf But I've yet to cleanse my soul of regret Not just one, no, more like a set I regret ever lying Embracing the idea of dying To every girl I ever cheated Ever boy I ever beated My thievery Being tricky Being sneaky Alone all weepy Oh my God, creepy Who ever thought being in a river carried away made me so sleepy By stealth The devil attempts to take my health Bad imsomnia, with asthma, bad cardiac Signs of a heart attack I want my sanity back My backbone is gone, feel like a rat What kind of stuff is that I also regret hating being black I regret hating everything:my mother My brother All 3 of us hated each other My father Why bother He did his job So I don't regret sticking to him like corn to a cob Like glue to paper My poems are the best way I make good use of paper Whether I weigh a thousand pounds or stand 10 feet tall Regret River rushes me to a waterfall Now I roll like a bowling ball One thing I don't regret, however, is trying to be the best I can be They'll never know my worth until I R.I.P.......