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Regret

Regret

Why I did it, I don’t know
Tornado of regret tortures my heart

On a moonless night, he approached 
Limping toward me as I pumped gas
Why was it fear and not compassion
With which I greeted him

Surely homeless, he must have slept ‘neath stars
Society’s outcasts camp on the beach,
Crossing the coastal highway only under night’s cloak

Deep lines on his sun-aged skin
Bespoke many years, perhaps 70
Dirty clothes tattered, barely covering his thin frame

No, I have no spare change
No, no, I won’t help you

I just wanted him to go away
Disappointment filled his eyes
He turned and hobbled to a nearby bench

When he sat, I was horrified
All his possessions lay beside him on the seat

An old Army cap he pulled out
And placed it on his head
He fought for our country
And I could not find a few dollars to help

As I drove away, I burst into tears
Feeling ashamed, disgusted with myself

Only two blocks from home,
I turned my car around

But he had moved on
	




January 13, 2020
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Gaul Avatar
June 16, 2020 at 1:49 PM
Carolyn, this is so human and so touching. We all have moments like this and you capture our internal hipocrisy so well. Oh we think we are compassionate but it usually is on our own terms only. This is beautifully composed and good for all to see every once in a while to remind us of who we really can be.
Horsman Avatar
April 24, 2020 at 2:14 AM
Hi Carolyn, reading his again from my favourites, and will be forever, A Fav! I'm well aware there is two side to this problem of the homeless, and of begging today...I've often wondered, if the second coming of Jesus Christ. Would be someone homeless sat on a bench? Stay Safe..
Theraven Avatar
February 14, 2020 at 6:42 PM
Carolyn, The state of affairs in your poem 'Regret' is not lost on your heart. -Richard
Marcum Wong Avatar
February 14, 2020 at 2:29 PM
There are so many homeless people it is difficult to know who to trust because some are mentally ill and try to grab you. It has happened to me. I always bless them if in doubt, I stay away. Your poem is so wonderful Carolyn. Belated Congratulations on POTD if I didn't comment on this, and congratulations on having it at the top of the best new poems list! Happy Valentine's Day! xxoo
Pandit Avatar
February 13, 2020 at 2:01 PM
Congrats my friend--you shine at #1 on the best poem list.
Smalls Avatar
February 13, 2020 at 1:07 PM
Excellent write Carolyn, I can relate to this as I'm sure many have. I enjoyed reading it. Thank you for sharing it.
Callus Avatar
February 12, 2020 at 8:20 AM
This is very touching, Carolyn. Here we come across one of those double-edged sword situations, where it's not always easy to distinguish between those in real need and fraudsters. Knowing you as a kind and generous person I can imagine how much this episode effected you. ~ Belated congrats on POTD! Hugs // paul
Callus Avatar
February 13, 2020 at 12:01 PM
Back again with Congrats...'Regret' is in first place at Best New Poems! well done..!
Devonshire Avatar
February 12, 2020 at 1:54 PM
Thanks for reading, Paul. This man was about the right age to have served in Vietnam.
Gauthier Avatar
February 11, 2020 at 3:35 PM
Wow - a very poignant poem, Carolyn. Congrats on a well deserved POTD.
O.J. Hunt Avatar
February 11, 2020 at 2:45 PM
Wow, this truly moved me Carolyn. This write should be posted everywhere in the world that it can be posted. Few would have such compassion as you about it; but there is a limit to it; you are not responsible for his situation...
Devonshire Avatar
February 11, 2020 at 3:53 PM
I've been looking for him ever since this happened. Will try to make it up to him. Thanks for your nice comment, Keith.
Mayowa Avatar
February 11, 2020 at 1:16 PM
I feel emotional right now.... this is so touching.
Turner Avatar
February 9, 2020 at 9:16 AM
Carolyn, I read this a week ago and could have sworn I left a comment. If you have ever been hungry, you can't help but feel for those who are down on their luck. It really doesn't matter why but some of them are very scary. Being alone, no one can blame you for being a bit frightened. This is the world we live in! Very sad.
Proxenos Avatar
January 23, 2020 at 2:07 AM
Back with congratulation - beautiful poetry and a truly deserved POTD Carolyn Blessings and hugs, Jennifer.
Iversen  Avatar
January 22, 2020 at 8:34 PM
Strong write, makes one think, very nice.Peter
Blodgett Avatar
January 21, 2020 at 12:01 PM
Thank you for bringing out something that all of us have felt and known in our society. Its such a beautiful read. Lonna
Goldsmith Avatar
January 20, 2020 at 5:40 PM
Congratulations on your POTD. What a way with words. You said it beautifully......
Wolf Avatar
January 20, 2020 at 12:50 PM
Congrats on your POTD, Carolyn! Cheers, Gershon
Neumann Avatar
January 20, 2020 at 3:38 AM
I am back to this poem. It is both meaningful and necessary. Kai
Proxenos Avatar
January 20, 2020 at 2:46 AM
Hi Carolyn so sorry I missed this gem - it is absolutely terrific. You describe a homeless man exactly as we have here. We have like a money box in the car to give to security guards and homeless folk, but if they look drunk, we won't give them. I know the feeling it happened to us once, and we drove around the block and found him and gave him a good amount of change, the surprise and thankfulness was in his eyes. Well penned my friend
Dietrich Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 1:47 PM
wow, what a powerful poem, Carolyn. I know how much you care about the homeless situation so this is a heartbreaker how you felt turning him down. The problem is that we see many people standing on corners as we leave our stores. We have no clue about them really. It's been reported that many folks in our area that beg for money do it for a living and that some are making a lot of money at it. One time I offered food to a woman and she got angry. She wanted the money for drugs. it's a quandry.
Carber Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 10:12 AM
The important thing is you turned back-- and feeling fear is not your fault but our society's for not taking care of the destitute as we once did. And yes, it's especially shameful when our vets are not appreciated for risking life and limb for us.
One Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 7:02 AM
i think many have done this and later regretted it... great choice for the contest and very honest.. also Congrats on POTD... Congratulations on your placement in the contest..
Devonshire Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 3:51 PM
Thanks, Silent One.
Messina Avatar
January 18, 2020 at 9:37 AM
A wonderful write, Carolyn. I'd have done the same. You never know what life and struggles someone has been through. Grant it, there are many that make their own choices... but there are probably just as many who aren't as fortunate as you and I and were thrown into Satan's pit. Congratulations on POTD. Hugs Charlie xo
Neumann Avatar
January 18, 2020 at 5:01 AM
Good choice to turn around. I lived in South Africa for ten years and learnt to balance kindness with fear, I hope. Kind wishes to you and congratulations on POTD, Kai
Allison Avatar
January 18, 2020 at 3:17 AM
a powerfully penned heartfelt piece Carolyn, many congrats on POTD:-) hugs Jan xx
Watt Avatar
January 18, 2020 at 1:41 AM
Carolyn, I waver between being wary and being compassionate. I have regrets in both directions. Know that your struggle shows you have a heart of gold. Know that your writing a poem with candor, courage, and humanity shows you are a true poet. Thank you very much for writing and sharing this. You have touched many souls, mine included ~ John
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