Regained

From love, I had refrained, Blanked it from my heart, And all that then remained Cold blood and muscle steel; Resolve from love abstained, That you and I should part, My freedom thus obtained, Surrender was the deal. But feelings unexplained Ran riot through my head, For nothing had I gained, Just loss and emptiness; A blacker rain had rained, The words I once had said Lay heavy and complained That truth should now confess. The love I once contained, No longer coloured black, My mind renewed and trained To struggle for the good; My joy no more disdained, I fought and got you back, My paradise regained To be just as it should.