Redemption

I walk 
Alone
Seeking redemption
Down small pathway

The road is blocked
I can’t get through
I have two options:
I can go into the woods,
I can go into fog, where I can’t see
I choose woods

The woods
Expecting fear, but
Not obtaining it, 
Retreats
I walk until
I find a trail
I follow this trail
Until it leads me to a castle
When I try to enter,
I am stopped by a gatekeeper

The gatekeeper says to me:
You cannot come in
But you may bask in the beauty

I wonder:
Why bask in beauty 
When you can’t truly
Enjoy it?

I kill the gatekeeper
And let myself inside
I have become a monster. But
I am strong; that’s good right?
Nothing can break me
Nothing will happen that I don’t 
Agree with

I am in control
I can do whatever

I go to the gardens
They are beautiful
But I don’t see that
All I see is darkness
I see the flaws, 
The corrections that
Should be made

I come to a rose patch
My name is Rose
I compare the roses to myself
The flaws, the need for
Improvement
I see that in myself

I fall to the ground
And the earth opens up

I am almost taken
To the center of the earth
But something catches me
A bird, but not a real bird
A figment of imagination
It carries me
Away, into the sky
But we land on the 
High wall of the castle

I ask it:
Why did you bring me here?
Before it answers, it takes off
Into the world

I look around for a sign, 
Something to show me a reason
But I find nothing
Absolutely nothing
No dirt, no cracks, no 
Flaws, nothing wrong
Nothing

I go inside the castle
To find it’s much bigger on the 
Inside than it appears on the 
Outside

No one is in the castle
Why did the gatekeeper not let me in?
There is no one here

All here is silence
No creaks in the floors
Or in the doors

I flee from this terrible place
It reminds me of my
Imperfection, my wrongs
I’d rather die than
Stay here

I run away
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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