Reclaiming My Time

Reclaiming my time 18 years spent wasting away I’m a lost scavenger every new day Time spent searching desperately For new eyes to help me see The key that will lock away the disease I’ll probably never live a life at ease Reclaiming my time Time spent running around When I should have stayed sound To drift into space I am bound I wasted all my chances I found Reclaiming my time Time spent hiding myself In a lonely closet upon the highest shelf Only fear and lost memories I own I’m left here suffocating being so alone Reclaiming my time Time spent hurting others When I needed a friend The cycle of anger and guilt Is an awful trend Until I come to terms It will never end Reclaiming my time Time spent trying to get me fixed In the process locking me away Killing off what was left of me While others got to laugh and play They were looking for a cure The pills have done a job on me I’m sure Reclaiming my time Time spent being left out Everyone has their clique They don’t know what I’m about I’m just a ghost But I still grieve the most On the inside I died That something my shades can’t hide Reclaiming my time Time spent watching my family break My father lost inside his own dark world He often said he lived in hell My parents split, the household fell I never knew my dad when he was well Reclaiming my time One day I’ll cross over To the other side My days were short But God I tried The angel said “You're here too early, that such a crime.” I said “All I’m doing his reclaiming my time