Reclaiming My Time
Reclaiming my time
18 years spent wasting away
I’m a lost scavenger every new day
Time spent searching desperately
For new eyes to help me see
The key that will lock away the disease
I’ll probably never live a life at ease
Reclaiming my time
Time spent running around
When I should have stayed sound
To drift into space I am bound
I wasted all my chances I found
Reclaiming my time
Time spent hiding myself
In a lonely closet
upon the highest shelf
Only fear and lost memories I own
I’m left here suffocating being so alone
Reclaiming my time
Time spent hurting others
When I needed a friend
The cycle of anger and guilt
Is an awful trend
Until I come to terms
It will never end
Reclaiming my time
Time spent trying to get me fixed
In the process locking me away
Killing off what was left of me
While others got to laugh and play
They were looking for a cure
The pills have done a job on me I’m sure
Reclaiming my time
Time spent being left out
Everyone has their clique
They don’t know what I’m about
I’m just a ghost
But I still grieve the most
On the inside I died
That something my shades can’t hide
Reclaiming my time
Time spent watching my family break
My father lost inside his own dark world
He often said he lived in hell
My parents split, the household fell
I never knew my dad when he was well
Reclaiming my time
One day I’ll cross over
To the other side
My days were short
But God I tried
The angel said
“You're here too early, that such a crime.”
I said “All I’m doing his reclaiming my time
Copyright © Josh Carlsen | Year Posted 2019
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