Real Feelings

I feel the world falling underneath me. If I take steps I will see. How life can really be. Iv ran into denial. No one knows how i feel. Like nothing is even real. But once I peel back the layers of sadness. I enter a state of madness. This corrupts my soul. Like there is an empty hole inside my heart. I think I’m about to fall apart. Then I see what happiness is in life. Once I start to really strive. My whole life goes live. Emotional fireworks explode. Then I know I can never be controlled. All my feelings disintegrate. Now nothing can penetrate my mind.