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Reaching Towards the Heavens

Reaching towards the heavens My soul in unbelievable pain Try as I might I can't find peace My being cries to hold you again I can never forgive myself Its my fault, I can't forget It left a broken woman A life meaningless I regret I have no right to shed a tear How you must hate me so I should have left but didnt I stayed, I did not know Thought what more could he do Thoughts that were mistaken My heart cries for you always In the end to leave me shaken Now my arms are empty My payment for my sin This is my hell the ultimate price never to hold you again Destined to live without you I pray and hope the angels, tell you my love is true So reaching towards heaven How I miss and love you Son how can I ask forgiveness I comitted a mothers unthinkable sin I was suppose to keep you from harm There is no atonement for this sin So forever reaching towards heaven Hoping to hold you once again My son Treyvon Anthony 6/15/97 - 6/15/97 Memorial of a Loved One Poetry Contest Sponsored by: Chantelle Anne Cooke Date:12/5/2019

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Caren Krutsinger

Date: 12/9/2019 12:30:00 PM

A beautiful poem, that shows a mother's love which is the strongest love of all.

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/9/2019 1:40:00 PM

Caren you are far too kind! Thank you!;)

Gordon Mcconnell

Date: 12/7/2019 4:30:00 PM

Such a moving and sad piece Brenda, it breaks one's heart to read it and want to bring you comfort, indeed as said before you've been through so much and deserve a break of good things but trust you take comfort of being reunited in heaven one day. Blessings and hugs, Gordon

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/7/2019 9:19:00 PM

Gordon thank you so much! But you know there are others who have been through more than I have! So I am just thankful for all I was able to learn in this life!;)

John Fleming

Date: 12/7/2019 9:43:00 AM

All sentient thought, great or small, is simpy an integral part of the very universe itself...for what would be the purpose of a universe, however grand or splendid, if there was nothing there to wonder at it all? A life is just that: a fleeting consciousness that ultimately returns to the eternal collective...and to one day muse again through a different set of eyes. Nothing ever truly perishes; death is the death of the body...not an immortal soul. Your son will "wonder" again: it is ordained.

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/7/2019 9:17:00 PM

John thank you so much! You know your comments always bring a smile!;) hugs!;)

Mystic Rose Rose

Date: 12/6/2019 10:37:00 PM

One never forgets a child, he is your angel waiting with open arms for the day when your hearts will be as one again, Until then, hold yourself in love xo

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 11:31:00 PM

Pixie thank you so much! You actually brought a tear to my eyes!;)

Matthew Anish

Date: 12/6/2019 7:18:00 PM

You meant angels, I presume not angles. Moving words - good luck in the contest! Peace & Love Matthew Anish

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 8:16:00 PM

Yes I did ... thank you for letting me know!and thank you for the read!;(

Sandra Adams

Date: 12/6/2019 6:33:00 PM

beautiful tribute to your son...sorry for your loss...i miscarried my last, so i know the emptiness...my mother lost her first so i have seen the pain linger...touching sad write... hugs

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 8:15:00 PM

Thank you sandy! Much appreciated;(

John Hamilton

Date: 12/6/2019 12:58:00 PM

Nothing like a mothers love, each child is special, seems like he never made it after birth, so sad, my heart breaks for you!

John Hamilton
Date: 12/6/2019 9:20:00 PM

Wow Brenda you could write a book on all you've been through! I'm so sorry for what you've suffered!

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 8:14:00 PM

He did make it after birth but only for a bit! I gave birth to him at home alone, after his father beat me severally! Thank you John!;(

Gershon Wolf

Date: 12/6/2019 8:39:00 AM

May you know no more sorrow, Brenda, and may you be reunited happily in Heaven. Blessings, Gershon

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 12:33:00 PM

Gershon you bring comfort to my many crazy days my friend thank you!;)

Regina Mcintosh

Date: 12/5/2019 11:50:00 PM

This is so sad and beautifully expressed. I love it so much. It's so so sad though. God bless you with love and prayers, Gina

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 12:33:00 PM

Regina thank you! I appreciate your words!;)

Charles Messina

Date: 12/5/2019 11:24:00 PM

Brenda, one needs not be in your arms to be held by your love. do not be so harsh on yourself dear. Your son will and no doubt always was held by you, this poem proves that. We steer our children in the right directions, how they choose to ride is their own choice. We as parents, hope for the best, but we also have our own lives to live.

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 12:32:00 PM

You are right but he was too you g to have a choice in anything!;)

Subimal Sinha-Roy

Date: 12/5/2019 10:00:00 AM

Sadness drips from the poem, touching the heart.

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 12:30:00 PM

Thank you so much! Your words warm me!;)

Ann Foster

Date: 12/5/2019 8:54:00 AM

Not your fault. I know this one close up. Lovely write, full of passion and pain, but be lifted. Our children are not ours, they are His. We just get them for a while. He takes them home sometimes, but we get to see them again... then... God Bless you and hold you dear... Ann

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 12:30:00 PM

Ann thank you! I know it isn't my fault but still it feels like it is!;)

Na Na

Date: 12/5/2019 8:53:00 AM

This is very touching Brenda. That had to be very hard. One day you will hold him again. Thanks for sharing this. Best of luck in the contest

Brenda Chiri
Date: 12/6/2019 12:29:00 PM

Thank you Gregory!;)