Raging Time

Patience and length of time does more than force and rage This I have come to learn with age Repeating destructive patterns, like an LP skipping Over my own radical behaviour I am tripping Drug and alcohol counselling and 2 self-help courses Listening to opinions and different voices Repeated destructive behavior to me abounds Every 1 to 5 years is what I have found Increased awareness of my lifelong battle Need to get back in the saddle On and off the wagon I get Repeated patterns with men I'v met Don't want to go back anymore It only makes my kidneys sore At times emotions and feelings nieve Wondering at times, what I really believe Trapped in a teenage headspace Quite often feeling out of place Escaping reality and visits with the ex Who knows what will happen next? To lessen choices and chances As well as any new romances Working everyday becomes a must No time for fun, love or lust Almighty dollar we chase in haste There is no more time to waste It seems in life, we have time or money Rarely both, seems kind of funny We laugh, lest we cry All we can do is try Grief and anger turns to rage It can happen at any age Fears and anxieties I do fear Never fading year after year We must put it in God's hands, in his grace Patience will put karma and them in their place Relentlessly come, neverendingly go It would be more fun to see a picture show Time and money, endlessly competing Like a garden needing endless weeding In life, we must find a balance Lest we're left hanging in the valance Deciding, is it a want or a need? Never get caught up in the greed