Poems From the Trap Too

Sitting here smoking a Dutch I find myself reminiscing about you too much, not the good times mostly bad thinking about how I messed up what we had, when the honeymoon wears off in something new I usually find myself thinking about you, adding you up & subtracting them away I'm a genuis in retrospect what can I say, I had to go out in the world just to find out how to lose my girl, I prayed for you and got what I asked for I should have also prayed for help from being a whore, fresh out a cage tryna make up for lost time I felt the attention from the streets again & I lost my mind, l forgot who answered the phone for me me every time I called, and I also forgot who's name was in 99% of my visitation log, an apology in the future doesn't hold as much weight as one in real time  I got released lost you then started doing real time