Pleasure Or Pain

I had never been so happy in all my life or so miserable - I would often awaken in the middle of the night and weep silent tears knowing the sands of my happiness were slowly sifting away. Many times I put on a cheerful façade - while I was slowly dying inside The increasingly sensitive nerves constantly eating away at my sanity - walking the ever present tight-rope between my true happiness and HEART BREAK Her love was a constant battle between pleasure & Pain - a high wire act - with nothing but cold hard reality to catch me if I should fall