Pierrot Lives In Sorrow

The people surrounding me keep asking “why are you going back and forth uneasily on the empty stage shedding crocodile tears, and telling the stories of negative effects on others, though you are not of a man of faculty who is even able to produce a theory comparable to 'Blind Will of Universe', one of worst hypothesizes a man can think of. It’s because though, when a worldly-minded snob shouts from a podium “you should have a positive attitude,” while displaying his resume proudly with the title that is little-to-do with his personality, his limited academic background that barely conceals the lack of intelligence, and insignificant accomplishment with somewhat concocted experience hiding his real being and thought, he receives respect from the audience who fascinated by every movement the snob makes in the form of applaud with standing ovation, I was always treated badly from audience, fed only by unwelcome astringent fruits of rejection and drink bitter tasting water sprang from unwanted rotten roots to quench my desire… And that’s why the course of my reasoning became negative, and, as a natural consequence, no matter how often you may say to the audience “you ought to be a person of positive attitude,” since there are more negative aspects surrounding us than the positive elements, and that’s why I was accepted by others negatively. More importantly, I was treated negatively from others simply because reality goes before me. Although positive thinkers boast themselves as if their thoughts are sound and healthy, by saying that the water in a cup is half full; negative thinkers sigh with a defected air and say that a cup is half empty. However, it doesn’t make any difference how you think, men’s thoughts cannot surpass the physical phenomena and, therefore, a half is a half, no more nor less than a half. In the boundary and limit is as such, whether you like it or not, men have to go on the path of their own destiny. Then, why does everyone has to have a positive attitude? I suppose, that is, not more than a writhe of the men who won’t admit reality in desperate agony. That’s the self-gratification of men who are not able to face the facts as they are. [The irony is, nonetheless, man is able to bear and raise a baby by an act of self-gratification. It’s amazing, the world is a place full of wonders.]