Paranoia

From the day I remember She is always with me like a close member. Whenever I look at a mirror, She whispers in my ear Highlighting only my minus to my terror. Whenever I try to smile at someone, She quickly points out How someday it might spoil the fun. Whenever I appreciate something, She just laughs at me and says How I don’t even have that one thing. Emphasizing something she makes me jealous, Thinking it will make our relation zealous. Whenever I try to reason with her, She makes a sad face And let the feeling of the guilty stir. She says, she wants to protect me But I am pretty sure She wants others to neglect me. Whenever I feel happy and content She fills my mind with her wicked stories And make my feelings dent. Even when I am dying every day, I can’t run away Because she merely resides Within my mind like a curse all the way.