Paint

I painted my bedroom wall blue. Then darker blue. Then also blue-gray. There is more out there. They promised. I painted on a canvas. There might be nothing out there. But I try to paint the sunset and sky. I wonder if those things are still real. I painted the deck. I moved all those chairs out of the way. Until the porch was empty and nothing could get in my way again. First, I cleaned everything off. Then a leaf landed on the space I had just cleared. I painted everything, Wearing overalls. I would howl and swirl my paintbrush in water. Even at night. There are colors we can’t see. We just imagine. I painted my bedroom wall. Again. If all the colors disappeared and there was only one- I think it would be bright green. Just like the necklace she used to wear.