Painful Memories

Every day I wake up, And every day I remember The way you left me with no warning Fleeing like a dog off its leash It was my 13th birthday I suppose that’s when fear settled in, abandonment followed Filling every pore of my body Though this wasn’t the first time, Definitely wouldn’t be the last I only wish I knew, What made you leave? Was it me? Was it because you thought I was better off without you? Because I wasn’t I wanted my father to love me, to see me, to hold me But all I got was your absence So, I let my imagination fill your role, because what else was I supposed to do? It worked for a while, until I grew tired I guess you did too Now, I know why you didn’t look back Or try to say goodbye Gone in a flash