Painful

Sitting here in a bed that once was mine but now it isn't A hot night, lovely and abandoned A constant feeling of lost love and intimacy Watery eyes is often a daily effect the end has arrived A thought of a brand new beginning was sorely crushed and shattered When my love was rejected, once again my pillows felt my pain, the soaking of the blanket and sheets had felt the tears my eyes had rained I positioned myself gracefully to my side of the bed as he lay there drenched in the covers from his feet up to his head I listen to silence, for words are no spoken but all that is said is heard for actions speak louder than words I cooked the other night worked all throughout the day to wake up in the morning and find the food still on his plate I cry all the time He does what he wants, stays out late the phone never rings, throughout the whole entire day I want to leave, I want so badly to escape all the hurt and all the pain just take my daughter and run away I pray one day I have the strength to do what needs to be done to leave this man, to leave this house before my spirit is gone