Pain In the Dark
I lay in the dark of the night hours, trying to sleep
As the pain returns like an unwanted visitor
Invading my home, invading my mind and heart
--- But the grief must be ---
Memories of my real father ripped out of my life
Race through my mind like a noisy freight train
The night is so familiar, like those nights years ago
When I would cry myself to sleep, difficult to breathe
Feeling abandoned, terrified, lost in the empty bed
There is no re-uniting, he has passed before I could speak
--- He is dead ---
His love for me was something I needed, lasting until now
The pain sits inside of me, like a lead ball, heavy, unresolved
It is so deep, when relived, it feels like I cannot not make it
Thankfully, I know this has happened many times, so I do
I clutch the blanket, wipe the tears off my face again
As if they are an endless river, around every scary bend
These traumatic memories that haunt me in such a way
I pray, I plead, until tears stop falling for now, for this night
Until I am so tired, my eyes shut to sleep in the darkness
I wake, thankful the feelings were released again for now
--- Today is a new day ---
Heidi Sands
8/21/17
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