Pages From My Yesterdays

This morning, I opened a drawer to my yesterdays
of crumpled poems half written, but thought I'd tossed
Here I am, reading them, through a tearful haze,
and remembering nights I wept for love I had lost

I flattened the pages, one by one with fingers shaking
A sonnet pledging love was abandoned, unfinished
My breathing was shallow; doleful heart was quaking
It's passionate memories were not quite diminished

On this note, the ink was much too blurred to read
where tear stains had fallen when I tried to explain
the despair that caused my fragile emotions to bleed
and pain in verses that I'd written in aching refrain

My wrinkled sheafs were an army of aborted thoughts
Awaiting me to deploy them; their orders still pending
Pens are mighty, but they cannot heal broken hearts
Some poems are not destined to have a happy ending

"Why not finish them?" asked my consoling muse
That's a burdensome endeavor that I simply cannot do
"Forgive me," I voiced, "but I must respectfully refuse"
Love ended, and there's nothing poetic left to pursue

There's no war to fight, and I moved on from my plight
My wrinkled paper soldiers would not go in the trash
I placed them on a funeral pyre. A match, I did light
and watched as burning embers turned them to ash




June 27, 2022
2022 Poetry Marathon Mile 5 Contest
Sponsored by Mark Toney
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Kauffman Avatar
July 8, 2022 at 10:20 AM
Wonderful imagery Jenna. There certainly are unfinished, unresolved poems of life that leave their unhealed scars. You have spoken eloquently of these experiences. Congratulations on your win!
Logan Avatar
July 8, 2022 at 12:57 PM
I always appreciate your very thoughtful reviews, Sam.
George Avatar
July 4, 2022 at 6:01 AM
I can understand the intensity of your feelings on lost love ! How deep must have been the wound it left in your heart as I see you still bleeding ! The reminders of yesterdays shouldn't pain you any more. It is wise that you laid them on the funral pyre and allowed the flame to swallow them. Let a new love resurrect from the ashes like a phoenix ! A very emotive poem. Congratulations on your great win, Jenna...
Logan Avatar
July 4, 2022 at 6:12 AM
Valsa, thank you so very much for your sincere words of kindness. My heart will always remember, but its wounds have healed. I appreciate your concern and wise words.
Alex Avatar
July 4, 2022 at 5:10 AM
Yesterdays are great. Beautifully written. Congratulations!
Logan Avatar
July 4, 2022 at 5:11 AM
Thanks so very much for your kind comments, Chris.
Dietrich Avatar
July 3, 2022 at 11:26 AM
Wow, this is so beautiful. Big congrats for your placement in the Marathon five contest, Jenna.
Logan Avatar
July 4, 2022 at 3:16 AM
Thanks for the encouragement, Andrea.
Ashley Avatar
July 2, 2022 at 6:43 PM
Dear Jenna, the sad beauty of your poem brings me to the center of your passionate heartache. I adore your last line for a grand finale to an intimate and emotional piece. Congratulations for your excellent win in Mark's contest. Warmest wishes, my friend.. ~Susan
Logan Avatar
July 3, 2022 at 3:25 AM
I am so pleased that you enjoyed my entry, Susan. Your comments are always supportive of my creative writing. Thank you for your wonderful insight.
Toney Avatar
July 2, 2022 at 2:10 PM
Jenna, this is painful and intimate. "The despair that caused my fragile emotions to bleed and pain in verses that I'd written in aching refrain." These phrases slay me. I love your resolution at the end. Congratulations on your win on Mile 5 of my 2022 Poetry Marathon Contest. Mile 6 has already started, and guess what? You're currently in 2nd position overall! You can find the current standings in my blog post.
Toney Avatar
July 3, 2022 at 6:22 AM
Thank you for your encouraging words, Jenna. It's interesting to note that Sandra Haight was in second position for the entire 2019 Poetry Marathon race (on the heels of the front-runner) until the very last contest. It was a photo finish when she won first place. Like Yogi Berra said: "It ain't over till it's over." :)
Logan Avatar
July 3, 2022 at 3:22 AM
Thank you so very much for honoring my entry with a placement in Mile 5, Mark. I have a runner ahead of me that I have predicted to be victorious after the last mile. I bow to her talent... no shame in crossing the finish line after Susan.
Watt Avatar
July 2, 2022 at 12:34 PM
Jenna, you write with an admirable balance of heart and mind, emotion and intelligence, passion and self-control. I especially loved "(my) doleful heart was quaking" and "Pens are mighty, but they cannot heal broken hearts". A wonderfully composed piece steeped in melancholy, I'm saving this in my favs. Congratulations on your win today ~ John
Logan Avatar
July 3, 2022 at 3:19 AM
John, your comments are always inspiring. I love the way your review my lines and offer the ones you most enjoyed. Thank you for faving it as for your congratulations. I'm humbled by your thoughts.
Lawless Avatar
January 17, 2021 at 10:15 AM
Jenna, the opening line hooked me for I have told many young poets to save their poems for they will be a window into the days past. So many great metaphor in this one .... great treatment of the theme
Logan Avatar
January 18, 2021 at 9:13 AM
Thanks very much for your consideration, kind thoughts, and placement, John.
Allison Avatar
January 16, 2021 at 2:49 PM
dropping back with my congrats Jenna- my poem went down the pan as i expected lol:-) hugs jan xx
Logan Avatar
January 18, 2021 at 9:12 AM
Thanks for returning, Jan.
Koplin Avatar
January 16, 2021 at 12:48 PM
Very profound Jenna, I could feel the pain in your thoughts. Well done!
Logan Avatar
January 18, 2021 at 9:12 AM
Thanks so much, Mark.
Wolf Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 8:33 PM
Looks as if the flames have won a pyrrhic victory -- or perhaps a 'pyro-ic' victory -- of sorts... Love how you've framed this as a battle, with an army... See this one in the winner's circle, methinks. Warm wishes, Gershon
Logan Avatar
January 15, 2021 at 12:24 PM
I guess one good burn deserves another. I would never have finished those abandoned poems. Heartache heals and lives goes on. Thanks for appreciating my army of paper soldiers, Gershon.
Kitchin Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 1:58 PM
Jenna, I love your crumpled thoughts poem that are literally crumpled thoughts, well done!
Logan Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 2:38 PM
Thank you very much for your kind thoughts on my crumpled pages, Tania.
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January 14, 2021 at 12:01 PM
Yes that last stanza, the Coup de grâce, absolutely nailed this one Jenna, another fantastic write, best of luck in the contest, cheers David
Logan Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 2:36 PM
Thank you so much, David. I'm delighted by your visit and kind remarks on these lines.
Buhagiar Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 11:05 AM
Let the memories burn but with your dexterity I bet you would have brought to life fine romantic poems. But I digress. Your poem had to finish like that for the contest. Good luck. You deserve it. ~~
Logan Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 2:36 PM
Your remarks are so very thoughtful, Victor. I appreciate your insight in realizing there was no alternative ending. Thank you very much.
Cunningham Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 10:59 AM
Those links to a painful past are best removed from your life to bring closure so that you can move forward with your life. Well written Jenna. Good luck Tom
Logan Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 2:35 PM
I still have many that were never completed, but on lots of other topics, too. You know how it goes...."one day I'll finish it... Thanks, Tom.
Krutsinger Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 10:39 AM
What a wonderfully well thought out missive for John’s contest.
Logan Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 2:34 PM
Thank you very much for your generous comments, Caren.
Allison Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 10:10 AM
So beautifully penned I too have many poems left unfinish on lots of scraps of paper but not of lost love of humour ... one day many of those will be confined to the rubbish bin:-) excellent contest entry. good luck:-) hugs jan xx
Logan Avatar
January 14, 2021 at 2:34 PM
I find them in every notebook I have. Some really should've been completed, and not just the love poems. Thanks, Jan.
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