Owned By Angst

I sweat when I’m nervous, Its my trait, Not by choice, Anxious, My fate. When I’m first to show, Last or out smarted, Just the thought of being anxious, Means that it’s started Sweats come, Mouth drys, Run away, Want to cry, Mop my brow, How, No tissue, Big issue, Some one speaks so I have to react, Retract, Will they see me sweat, Think I’m weird, It’s everything I’ve ever feared. Deep breaths, Need to stop muttering, Eyes wide, Don’t start stuttering, Sweaty pits, Can you see, Please no, Why me, Wrong colour shirt, Feel hurt. Make an excuse, Need to leave, Reprieve, Could say somethings happened, Terribly bad, Play the part, Look sad. Say I’m unwell, They’ll think I’m mad, They don’t know me, My bad, My life My struggle Too many feelings to juggle. Moan, Feel so alone - in this crowd Why am I here, Fear Maybe it’s too soon Too loud. Deep breath - stay calm, Happy thoughts, Sweaty palms, Run away, I must not, ............... I’m only at the bus stop.