Over and Over

Let down, underground ,underwater, under people ,under powered, overwhelmed, boxed in, can't get out, over and over. Social work, seeing people, can't fill them up, empty. Lots of dreams to heal the world, people get better, over and over, the same old story. Abused, used, dealt a bad hand, lost control, anger, signed up for school, went to war instead, loss, divorce, childhood trauma, devestation, depression, anxiety, change, new beginnings, old endings, can't understand, saw too much, voices talking when lips aren't moving, ruminating patterns over and over. Wanted to be an actress, creative spark endured, until spark blew out. Didn't die like Marilyn Monroe, but creativity took a turn, to help those that are burned....out over and over. Talking, listening, stories turn wild, into sainthood, wounded healer of the stars, system won't listen to new directions, which would be a better solution to the sorrow and woes. Stifled endeavors, feelings, hopeless and drained, helpless empathy that has been gained, fill up the tank, the pitcher, in order to listen and learn over and over.