Outcast

I had my place
Down at the bottom with all the 
other mongrel mutts
Always there but never better
Waste of space
I belonged down there
With all the other ones like me

Dust particles swept away
Wretched rodents, roads ran 
potent as streets I intoxicated
Helpless hopefuls I suffocated, 
me with my repulsive stench
Mothers hide your children
I was dirt
Not for the accodales my 
fearless filth had accumulated,
 not for the devious deeds in 
which I participated but for my 
own existence
Wretched, repulsive rodent
Trapped, poisoned, swept away

Just like all the other intruders
I took my place
Down at the bottom with the 
half built bridges, and the 
likeliness of witches
Likened to the worst, I took my 
place in front of curse

Here I am
Failure, intruder, wretched 
rodent
Potent curse
I come to a world vaccinated for 
likes of me
Immune to the claws of plain 
and ordinary
Free from the shackles that bind 
me
They live
In a world where perfection 
prevailed
Be it in needles, pills, creams
High heels, hot meals, dollar 
bills
Name it and have it they will

I had no place in such a world
So like every other outscast I 
took ny place
Down at the bottom of the 
gutter
In some place where even the 
wind broke every word I uttered

My deformed spirit, floating 
carelessly to the very outskirts 
of existence
Far beyond me
I was not me, inside of me
In a world where success 
prevailed
I failed me at being me

Some part of other flesh, 
another soul I envied
I want to be like her
Someone make me better, 
make me like them
Render me dreamer, achiever, 
go-getter
Not just simple and plain
Make me better
Rid me of my lazy ways
Drag me past contaminate
Change me and my attitude
Teach me how to contribute

Stained with a speck of hope to 
spare
I began to lead it spread
Rapidly, relentlessy
This new thing grew inside of 
me
It let me see a brand new me
This new thing taught me how 
to breathe
Deeply, readily, deservingly
This thing called faith
With worthiness whispered 
'believe'
It saw me step outside of me
And showed me all that I could 
be

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