One Wonders What Might Have Been

one wonders what might have been the tapestries in my mind are constantly rearranging as the wind chimes play in my mind, it is evident that i dig your rhythm watching the rain on the back patio, thinking about the scent of you when your body reacts, how would you stare into my eyes all i have are these careless insects to tell my problems to i caught a glimpse of you at the movie theater with your family the look of you was so peaceful and cozy here i am....my date a popcorn and drink combo i wonder if you would let me finger you in the darkness of the movie theater wait....let me clear my thoughts for a minute.... now i have to go to the bathroom to regain control of my thoughts i admit to the man in the mirror that i was such a fool to choose personal, material wants over you, the only one i truly love when the lights turn on, i am embraced by the quiet of the loneliness in every room i smile when i greet, but i cry inside one wonders what might have been....in the actual light of reality....