On Jokes and Lies

I wanna see what's underneath", you say And as we both laugh nervously you add "Just kidding" But is this a lie? I wonder Is it the look in your eyes The smile on your face The warmth of your voice Or the depth of your hugs In which I drown every time That tell me how much I love you Or are they just kidding You reassure me That I'm not annoying That it'll be alright That I'll find my own purpose And that you will stay For as long as I want you I hope you're not kidding... I know How you love her And how this will never be mine But you give me a flower While we sit in the grass And the sun's in the sky Then I remember that I was your sun While she is the rest of the universe You were not kidding. "I'm in love with you", I say And as we stare at each other's eyes I add "Just kidding" And this is a lie.