Old Man, Too

each year goes by faster than the last i have a greater sense of urgency to see, hear, touch, feel what i’m passing through i want to pump the brakes, slow down but do i want to let all i sped through and by ….. catch up i can’t tell you where or when or even if, a mid-life crises happened although i suspect it did i must have gotten up to get a beer and missed halftime i am not afraid of aging or getting old truth be told, i never expected to live this long and, senior discounts are pretty cool i may have more or less than a decade left, statistically speaking .. i wonder if those flickering lights i see sometimes are really cataracts how is it that 5 foot 6 was 5-8, 40 years ago and is now 5 foot 3 and the hair on my head is gone yet the hair in my ears needs trimming weekly would i, could i do anything different to change my chances, for a different outcome, the outcome if i didn’t recognize what i was missing before, everything i dismissed as unimportant, misplaced, irrelevant; when i said no to what i didn’t know, to think i’d see it now, am i as arrogant today as in my youth my grandfather would tell me “you can’t teach an old dog …” anything so it would seem with an old man, too