Ode To Defenceless Aids

I fear to be myself deeply involved health they say is wealth nor if medication wouldn't give a lasting solution rest my limbs and nose nor those that I marked sighing and fading nor those now I detected in streams makes me happy or by mere looking why untold,...? why dead and skeleton? why defenceless head and heart? what are those sum of pains? who is who? I fear to exhaust mine or keep lossing I fear over spending then and now.