Nothingness

Sometimes I wish I didn't exist, Evaporate into the mist of nothingness. I'm just a faint memory in the back of your mind, When you try to recall me, you say never mine… Never mind the mind was never clever enough to pull the lever of time, I'm tripping this must be the acid dripping off of my spine. No holy scriptures, pictures or babies by bitches to remember me by, Just a faint electrical current that breezed through third eye, I wish to die before I've died, So I commit suicide. Born again, again born within the mist of genocide where I must abide reside for a time. Once again up this steep mountain I must climb, but why… Why are we born to live? Live to die? Die to live forever and sever our ties with the material earth, And merge with the cosmic multi-verse, Secret behind the secret within the secret I search. For some a debt they must reimburse, Waiting to see the worst. Self oppression is the reason the world is so cold, and why some things that shine are sometimes illusions in this reality like fame and gold… as I pull the trigger releasing the potential energy of four five taking my last breath. I see depth.