Not What It Looks Like

You can't see the sky through the clouds, And ghosts are no longer life. I couldn't see it coming: And now I am a child of two countries. Words can't fix everything, Desires can't forget everything. I can't send a bad message to everyone, So I just want to be. To be indifferent does not mean to deceive, And there is not always no light in the dark. Why would anyone make up rumors about me? But it doesn't matter, because their song is sung. An angel does not mean that he is a messenger of light, And to turn away is not to become blind. I am the one who is no longer looking for an answer, Quietly sneaking into someone else's watering hole. The light doesn't always illuminate the road, And naivety does no good. I don't want to pray to God anymore, And I understand that life is not a game. Cynicism sometimes saves the soul, And parting gives a new love. I won't ruin my life again, I have enough stitches in my heart.