Not the One

I'm sad you're gone
I'm sad you've move on

I really like you
You  say you really like me too
but Just to get me in bed
Take me out, buy me flowers and wine
then tell me you're mine
All just for sex

I wish I didn't feel this way
but I'm in my feelings today

Still I wish you wouldn't leave
I see you find someone better than me

I know we haven't talked in a while
I just seen your Facebook profile
What a beautiful child

It seem like when I think I find the one
Next thing I know he gone
I'm tired of catching feelings and getting left behind
I'm tired of wishing and hoping a man is mine

Feeling this way 
led me to talk to God today
I told him Im feeling like this
I just give up looking for love
I quit
I feel like I'll never be good enough

I can never look at how fine some one is
It gets me no where
Thats not how I want to live
Lord I'll wait on you
I cant be let down again
I'll let you pick that man

I pray that you get him to come to me
cause I can not go to him
I dont want to be no fool
Thinking that it you
and thats the devil using his tool
to make me feel dumb
Lord dont let me be that one 
who is deceived
Lord you take the wheel
Lead me

Copyright © Christy Edgley | Year Posted 2019

Please Login to post a comment