Not So Dear
Dear exam
Sincerely I don’t hate you, I just don’t like you
To be fair, I don’t think anybody does
You issue countless threats in the name of tests
A series of poison in carefully measured dosage
Administered by well-trained ‘motivational speakers’ who apparently knows more about my life than I
They mean well I can’t deny
But the way they sugar coat high blood pressure, depression, diabetes and serve it with a smile
I can’t help but think they are in on it
Thinking about you is sleep depriving
Preparing for you is depressing
If I die now, I’d go straight to heaven because you’ve scared the hell out of me
You have me working so hard to earn your approval
Failure of which I prove to be a nobody
My parents believe in you, how you got them to is beyond me
They have bet my success or failure in life on you
Every mark I score, every grade I get reflects a future
A delusional believe that you can bring a fortune
But you and I both know that is not entirely true, is it?
Anxiety attacks and depression are a possibility
Ulcers and paranoia are a guarantee
But the sad thing is, all this anger and pain, is because I flanked the last paper
And I’m afraid, I’m so afraid of my future.
Mathematics is a headache
Economics is a heartache
Biology is a sweetheart and pass it am certain
But last time I scored an E in religion, I had to wonder if I was satan
History is past tense, I buried it with legends
Gave my undivided attention to geography, but damn it’s hard as a rock
I loved chemistry, till I saw you in it
You are such a mole, I even lost the concept
My spoken language is perfect, too bad it can’t be reflected when I write you
I mean…how do I see gray in black and white?
You are so small but the ripple effect is seismic
Instead of helping you just here to tease me.
I hate to tell you that I told you but I told you
I don’t hate you, I just don’t like you.
Copyright © Samuel Sikanga | Year Posted 2022
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