Not So Dear

Dear exam Sincerely I don’t hate you, I just don’t like you To be fair, I don’t think anybody does You issue countless threats in the name of tests A series of poison in carefully measured dosage Administered by well-trained ‘motivational speakers’ who apparently knows more about my life than I They mean well I can’t deny But the way they sugar coat high blood pressure, depression, diabetes and serve it with a smile I can’t help but think they are in on it Thinking about you is sleep depriving Preparing for you is depressing If I die now, I’d go straight to heaven because you’ve scared the hell out of me You have me working so hard to earn your approval Failure of which I prove to be a nobody My parents believe in you, how you got them to is beyond me They have bet my success or failure in life on you Every mark I score, every grade I get reflects a future A delusional believe that you can bring a fortune But you and I both know that is not entirely true, is it? Anxiety attacks and depression are a possibility Ulcers and paranoia are a guarantee But the sad thing is, all this anger and pain, is because I flanked the last paper And I’m afraid, I’m so afraid of my future. Mathematics is a headache Economics is a heartache Biology is a sweetheart and pass it am certain But last time I scored an E in religion, I had to wonder if I was satan History is past tense, I buried it with legends Gave my undivided attention to geography, but damn it’s hard as a rock I loved chemistry, till I saw you in it You are such a mole, I even lost the concept My spoken language is perfect, too bad it can’t be reflected when I write you I mean…how do I see gray in black and white? You are so small but the ripple effect is seismic Instead of helping you just here to tease me. I hate to tell you that I told you but I told you I don’t hate you, I just don’t like you.