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Not Now

In silence my lips have been drawing the shapes Of phrases, so vague and deprived of a meaning. My dreams are about to find an escape To where the end always meets the beginning. My black and white fears have got an excuse: I still have the world - in my heart and around. I'm no longer free - I have something to lose. The more I deny that my freedom has bounds, The better I see them, the more my heart frets - The twilight has failed to appease me somehow. I'll lose it all soon, but I'll never regret. My lips keep repeating: "Not me, just not now".

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Michael Jordan

Date: 12/4/2008 12:05:00 PM

poetry books, underwent hep,C treatment and had major back surgery and I still fell so free - You see I feel freedom is an internal thing - As long as your free inside you have true freedom - We are our own jailer and our happiness and pride come from with-in - Great poem April - God Bless, MJ

Michael Jordan

Date: 12/4/2008 12:01:00 PM

Being one who lost many years of my life due to my addictive behavior and criminal ways I have greatly pondered the word "Freedom" - During my last trip to Prison while in the SHU (The hole) I turned my life over to God and at the age of 41 I penned my first poem - Even though I was locked down 23 hours a day with no contact I was so free and I just wrote and wrote poem after poem and my entire life changed - I've now been out 5 years on Jan. 28th - Clean and sober and I have published my cont.