Not Afraid Part 3 Draft

So I wrote this rhyme just for me, to ignite self belief, and get me out of this sea, I'm a swim the sea 'til I reach the sand, wet the desert 'til the plants grow grand, 'til the storm clears up, and the grass gleams up, I'm a march toward a life I succeed. It's the indecision that's stopped me and a lack of belief sabotage my existence got me gritting my teeth A new leaf it's time to reach deep down beneath me time to pay my parents back for all they did show 'em I've grown and I aint stupid I'm trying to self inspire and spark some life into these wires 'cus though my tries fail know my tries aint in short supply so however traumatised I'm a stay wise I'm under a landslide but I'm digging a tunnel and I'll never allow the day that you see my funeral I'll funnel out the self doubt from now on I'm a man up and I'm a be strong They'll be no more excuses allowing the useless I'm a treat this depression ruthless and remove its presence with no hesitant movements I won't lose or run in circles I won't hide in shells like turtles I'm a square up and give it hell I won't let this failure finish my tale I'm a put depression in a coffin and hammer in the nail I won't drop or stop I'm obsessed with reaching the top because the lowest depth didn't cause death and I'm still taking in breaths so you can scoff at me oftenly but I swear to God nothing aint stopping me!