Not a Joke

Is my pain funny to you? Are my fears hilarious? Do my tears make you laugh? When I am upset, do you find it entertaining? Why is my sadness a joke to you? Why do you joke about something that makes me hate myself? Did this happen to you? Would you like it if this happened to you and I started to giggle? THIS IS NOT A JOKE. MY PAIN IS NOT FUNNY. MY FEARS ARE NOT HILARIOUS. MY TEARS SHOULD NOT MAKE YOU LAUGH. WHEN I AM UPSET, YOU SHOULD NOT FIND IT ENTERTAINING. MY SADNESS SHOULD NOT BE A JOKE TO YOU. YOU SHOULD NOT JOKE ABOUT SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME HATE MYSELF. THIS DID NOT HAPPEN TO YOU. YOU WOULDN'T LIKE IT IF THIS HAPPENED TO YOU AND I STARTED TO GIGGLE THIS IS NOT A JOKE.