No Free Rides

My head is pounding and it won't quit My hands trembling In your presence, again feeling like a misfit My anxiety is high my self-confidence is low Told you what I think of you As you say it's time for me to go Why do I have to be the one to lose this time Why do I have to be the one to feel this pain This anguish that lingers and won't subside I bury myself under my covers like I have something to hide Enough is all I gotta say You have lost your voice This time, it will not be your way It's my choice, my turn, to shove you aside No longer will you come along, abusing my heart, looking for a free ride It's easy for you to turn it off and on like a switch For pouring my heart out to you, I'm now the crazy witch Tired of being the other woman, the harlot, the jezebel in your eyes Tired of feeling like I'm drowning in this endless well of lies You keep dragging me down so I let you continue I see you scanning the numbers on your cell phone Your variety of victims; you choose from the menu It's up to me to shut you out of my life Slam it, lock it, shut it, seal it tight But I know you, you'll come around again Don't be so sure, next time, I'll take you back in. Enough is all I need to say You have lost your voice This time, it will not be your way It's my choice, my turn, to shove you aside No longer will you come along, abusing my heart, looking for a free ride