NIGHT TERRORS CONTINUE ALLAH WILL PROVIDE

MY PTSD HAD BEGUN TO CAPTURE MY THOUGHTS MY DREAMS OF COMMITING SUICIDE QUIETING THE RUSSIAN VOICES IN MY HEAD THE FEDERAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH MY MIND WOULDN'T ALLOW ME REST OR I PEACE EVEN DURING WAKING HOURS SINCE THAT COLD MAY 24TH 1985 MY LIFE BECAME AN FBI INFORMANT FEAR PANIC CONTROLLED EVERYTHING THERE WERE A FEW EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENTS THAT KELP ME FROM DROWNING IN GREIF SEVERE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE BEAUTIFUL KIDS AN YET I KNEW I COULDN'T LIVE LIKE THIS WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI FINALLY ON A WIRE TAP WITH GARGANO OVER 7 YEARS ONGOING CALLS THREE TIMES A DAY DIDN'T MATTER WHERE I WAS IN THE WORLD CONSTANT CONTACT WITH THE FEDERAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION ARLINGTON HEIGHTS ILLINOIS SPECIAL AGENT PAULA BRAND SPECIAL AGENT ALAN KING SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH THE NIGHT TERRORS BEGAN ITS DARK SOMETIMES FOGGY IN MY BEDROOM I AM BEING TORTURED IN A THINK TANK WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ARSON MURDER SIRENS BLARE I'M AFRAID THEY TELL ME IF I DON'T TALK I WOULD BE FRAMED FOR ARSON MURDER MY MIND SHUT I AM QUICKLY REMINDED OF THE HOSTAGE SITUATIONS MY HEART RACE ONLY THERE IS TWO HEART BEATS MY FETUS IT FEELS LIKE THE ENTIRE WOULD COULD HEAR MY HEART IT NEEDS TO BE SILENT FOR WITH EVERY BREATH A KILLER AWAITS TO TAKE MY BREATH AWAY PANTING PANIC ATTACKS MY HEART SWOLLEN THE HEART VALVES SHUTS I TRY TO BREATHE THROUGH MY NOSE MY CHEST WALL CRACKS SINKS IN I WANT IT TO STOP TO BE QUIETED I WANT MY HEART TO STOP THE HEART BEATS OF AMERICA INSIDE MY CHEST MY RIBS ARE BRUISED CAUSE IT HURTS TO BREATHE I ASK GOD WHY ARE YOU KEEPING ME ALIVE WHEN CLEARLY THIS IS HELL ON EARTH YOU SAY SUICIDE IS FORBIDDEN KNOWING FULL WELL THATS A LIE GOD SO LOVE THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON THAT WHO SO EVER BELIEVETH IN HIM SHALL HAVE EVER LASTING LIFE THEREFORE SINCE I BELIEVE IN THE LORD JESUS CHRIST I BELIEVE IN EVER LASTING LIFE VERILY SURELY THE KINGDOM OF GOD OPENS FOR THOSE WHO KILLS THEMSELVES AS WELL WHO COULD SURVIVE SUCH A TRAUMATIC HELL ON EARTH A YOUNG MOTHER WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FOR JUNK SICK COPS DEALERS KILLERS HAVING A SEVERE BREAKDOWN ONLY TO BE TERRORIZED DECADES LATER OVER ARSON MURDER OF 9 PERSONS WHO PERISHED IN THE FIRES OF HELL NIGHT TERRORS CONTINUE POURING IN CAN'T STOP THEM CAN'T QUIET THE HEART BEATS I INVISION MY FUNERAL ME IN THAT CASKET MOURNING LEANING OVER SAYING I CAN STILL HEAR HER HEART BEAT KILLERS FAKE THEIR DEATHS TO PARK AT MY DOOR BREAKING INTO MY HOME I SPIT ON THE GROUND SWEEPING THEIR DIRTY FOOT PRINTS MY HOME SMELL OF MUSK THE SMELL OF STRANGERS JAMAICAN TALIBAN FEMALE STALKERS AND A MAN HIS SWEAT LINGERS INSIDE MY CLOSET NIGHT TERRORS AROUND 2AM MY CLOSET BECOMES A PORCH CONNECTING TO A VERY OLD DECAPITATED HOUSE ON THE LAKE ALIGATORS PROWLS AWAITING MY FLESH THE ALIGATORS ARE ANCIENT THE BLOOD OF SLAVES THE BLOOD OF THE LYNCHED EVEN IF AN ALIGATOR BITE YOU THEY WILL MOT EAT YOU UNLESS YOU ARE DEAD THEY ROLL THIER PREY UNTIL THE FLESH IN TENDER LIMP DEATH OCCURS HE ALLOWS THE FLESH TO ROT FROM THE INSUDE OUT FINALLY ALIGATORS THANKSGIVING FROM MY CLOSET I SEE THIS OLD RACIST MAN PACING HIS PORCH LOUD STOMPS I REMEMBER HIM FROM THAT DAY ON THE NATURE HIKE STILL HANGING ON THE TREE THINE EYES OPENED TO THIS HORROR PERHAPS HE WAS A SERIAL KILLER FROM YEARS AGO HUNG ON THE TREES OVER THE LAKE NOW HE LIVES IN MY CLOSET BECAUSE I SAW HIM HANGING HIS GUTS HANGING OUT LONG WHUTE HAIR DRESSED LIKE A SKINWALKER I KNEELED AS SOULD WERE BEING LIFTED FROM THE TREES BUT NOT HIM HE REACHED FOR ME AS MY PRAYERS COULD HELP HIM LIKE ALL THEE OTHERS THATS WHEN I REALIZED HE HAD TO BE A SERIAL KILLER IN THE SOUTH WHERE CATTLE RANCHERS ACTUALLY DUMPED LYNCHED BLACK PEOPLE IN WITH THE ALIGATORS THE SMELL OF DEATH THE TERRORS OF WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BEING EXPOSED TO ALL THE KILLERS DEALERS CORRUPTION PLOTTING MY DEATH WITH AN ARSON MURDERER OF 9 PERSONS WHY MUST I SING IN THE CHIOR GO TO MASS PRAYING TO A GOD WHO WANTS ME TO MURDERED INSTEAD OF MY OWN KIND OF DEATH BY SUICIDE WHY SHOUKD MY DEATH BE VIOLENT THE MANY VIOLENT OFFENDERS IDENTITY THIEVES IMPERSONATING ME TO BE DEAD IS JUST DEAD THIS WAY MY IDENTITY IN DEATH CAN NEVER BE STOLEN AGAIN THE FEDERAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION ARLINGTON HEIGHTS ILLINOIS SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH SPECIAL AGENT PAULA BRAND SPECIAL AGENT ALAN KING WILL NOT HAVE TO CONTINUE CLONING MY IDENTITY WITH MOHAMMAD ATTA NEICES BID LADEN WIVES PERSONS CONVICTED AS A RESULT OF MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI JAMAICAN TALIBAN IDENTITY THIEVES PERPUTRATING FRAUD UPON ME IN AMERICA MY DEATH SHOULD BE ALL MIINE NO COMMOTION JUST ME AND THIS SO CALLED GOD JAH ALLAH I FEEL WORTHLESS LIKE A SUICIDE BOMBER GOING INTO HOSTAGE SITUATIONS PREGNANT WITH WIRES WRAPPED AROUND MY WOMB BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK OFFICERS WHO ARE PREYING ON ME TODAY LIKE ALIGATORS GATHERED WITH MY JAN 6TH NEIGHBORS RIPPING FLAGS STEPPING ON MY WAR HERO MEDALS OUR MOUNUMENT TERRORIZING THE BOTH OF US WITH THREATS DEATH THREATS I LOOK OVER THE LAKE AND I SEE MY FATE TO BE MURDERED BY CORRUPTION FOR WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FOR THE FBI FROM CORRUPTION BITTER RAGE SATANIC I WANT TO SCREAM SO I TURN MY MUSIC LOUD CAUSE CAMERAS LISTENING DEVICES INSTALLED IN OUR HOME SO THEIVES COULD ATTACK US WITH HOME INVASIONS FOR DUCUMENTS CALENDARS BANK MILITARY INFORMATION COMPLETE HELL ON EARTH SO I BEGGED GOD TO ALLOW ME TO END MY OWN LIFE TO STOP THIS ONGOING TERRORIST ATTACK UPON ME FOR BEING AN INFORMANT A RAT A SNITCH IT DOESN'T MATTER IF THE FBI CLONED ME WITH AN IMPOSTER TH8E KILLERS KNOWS ME EVERY TIME MY IMPOSTER USES MY IDENTITY PEOPLE DIE HORRID DEATH CAR CRASHES FORCED OFF THE ROAD GUN VIOLENCE FALLEN OFFICERS AS I PANT WITH NIGHT TERRORS HOLDING MY ROSARY BEGGING HIS HOLINESS TO ALLOW THIS ONE TIME A SUICIDE VICTIM TO ENTER INTO HEAVEN HE REPLIES YOU ARE MINE AND I LOVE YOU WHICH EXPLAINS THIS HELL ON EARTH I COULD KILL MYSELF AND ENTER INTO GODS KINGDOM KILLING MYSELF BEFORE MY KILLERS IS AN ACT OF SHEER COURAGE BELIEVING THAT I SHALL DIE AND LIVE NEVER WILL I SMELL THE MUSTY BREATH INTRUDERS LEAVE BEHIND DURING A HEIST I FEW LEFT SWEATIE T SHIRTS IN MY CLOSET TRYING TO OPEN MY GORRILLA TOTES FOR INFORMATION ON MY UNCLE BOB SATTERFIELD MY TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY INSURANCE INFORMATION MEDICAL INFORMATION WE RETURN FROM DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS TO THE SMELL OF AT LEAST FOUR MUSTY PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY SHOT UP MY PLANTS TARGET PRACTICE TO INTIMIDATE MY WORLD IT DID VERY MUCH SO MY WOUNDED WAR HERO WAS TRIGGERED WE ARE BEING BULLIED BY THIS HORROR OF FBI AGENTS ACTUALLY BELIEVING ITS OKAY TO CLONE HUMAN BEINGS NO REGUARDS TO WHAT THIS DOES TO SPOUSES THIS IS UNHOLY THIS IS HELL ON EARTH MY HUSBAND IS A WONDERFUL WAR HERO HERE IN AMERICA THE SHEER BREACH OF CLONING ME WHILE I'M STILL ALIVE HAS CAUSED MANY DEATHS AND I DON'T WANT TO LIVE TO SEE ANYMORE PEOPLE PERISH BECAUSE OF ARSON MURDERS OF 9 ELDERLY PERSONS THE FBI TOLD ME MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBANDS AND CIRO GARGANO KILLED THESE PEOPLE THE FBI ALSO DECIDED TO CLONE ME WITH A JAMAICAN TALIBAN FEMALE STALKERS MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND MISTRESS CIRO GARGANO MISTRESS THIS CREATED A DEEP SEATED HATRED FOR ME THAT ALLOWED HER TO ARRIVE WITH GUNMEN TO MURDER ME BY GODS GRACE I LIVED MY KILLER DIED AT MY FEET I WILL NOT WAIT TO BE MURDERED VIOLENTLY EXPOSED AN FBI INFORMANT IN AMERICA I LOVE AMERICA SO MANY DEATHS AS A RESULT OF MY BEING EXPOSED BY THE FBI CLONE IMPERSONATING ME EXPOSING ME TO KILLERS DEARS CORRUPTION ARSON MURDERS CIRO CAR BOMBS IN MY FACE THIS IS HELL ON EARTH MY PEACE COMES AFTER I TAKE MY OWN LIFE I AWAKEN FROM HORRID NIGHT TERRORS 2AM VOICES SPECIAL LEROY HEIMBACH SINGING MY GIRL AND I KNOW I'VE GOT SUNSHINE ON A CLOUDY DAY AND ITS ALRIGHT CAUSE I AM SAFE ALLAH PROVIDES WE RETURN TO HIM SUICIDE IS SELF DEFENSE IN WAR GOD BLESS THE FEDERAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION ARLINGTON HEIGHTS ILLINOIS CHICAGO FIELD OFFICE AND GOD BLESS AMERICA