Never Said Goodbye

As I go day by day feeling this unbearable pain. I can't help but feel as if these thoughts can’t be explained. I try to change as I read her name. But the hurt and the love will never be the same. Mother and brother, I saw you the day before. Next thing I know I lost you faster than a shutting door. 3 years ago till now, it felt like this feeling was getting old. I can't help but feel as if I'm hanging by my throat. When I blinked you were gone quicker than a lion. I felt as if I was drowning deep in hell. I miss you and I wish you were here. Maybe then I can say the goodbye that was never near.