Neuro Cells

There telling me it’s in my brain Neuro cells have gone astray Can’t get them back, it’s in the genes Now I’m paying for all his sins They say to imagine a watering can Tipping the scales to keep me sane Medication-here we go Bye bye to the Recina we have known Don’t want to take it Please, please, don’t This makes dull And each time I go. I go to a place so dark and sombre A place where im all alone to wonder Wonder about how it came to this And wonder about all the things I miss I miss being able to laugh all day I miss having friends that would never go away I miss not having a care in the world I miss just being a normal girl They say it will get better with time But time is not one on my side You see my thoughts get darker as each does pass I’m afraid one day I must succumb Succumb to the voice in my head The one that’s telling me I’m better off dead I fight with this voice everyday Why will it not go away? I make my plans every night On how I’m gonna give up this fight As each night passes I say a prayer “Oh Babaji I’ll meet you there”. But then I wake and start again The voices are back, so I again I must say “There telling me it’s in my brain Neuro cells have gone astray”.