Need To Fix My Life

As im sitting here, just listening to some screamo, im thinking, about my life, about my friends, about my family, about my bf, everything. Im just thinking about everyone and everything in my life. and im thinking, Man, im screwed up. I NEED to fix up my life, i cant live like this forever, i just cant, I want to fix up my life right now, right here. But its just so hard, when your living another life, in the back of your mind, a life thats so perfect, so precise, that you want it to be real, but you know it, it never will be..