Need Change

I need my life back how do I do that change my routine and mindset make white of black Move outside my comfort zone find new and challenge unknown take it steady like steps of a baby so my head's fresh free of crazy I’m too contained to see long range just know the first thing I should change back to normal appears to me as strange but I know clear will offer less pain So first step is shake this routine which has me held rooted in no ruse just truth remove the scene turn this boggy swamp to blue sea I need to get my life back in order to go forward walking sideways like a crab sounds easy but it's torture