My War With Myself

I can feel the life, That flows through my viens, But each beat of my heart, Just brings me pains, There's nothing wrong, as far as you can see, But I can't stop the want, To claw the life out of me, My heart squeezes tight, And my lungs feel stiff, My insides so hollow, My mind in a dark drift, I am so very lucky, My life is so full I have three little blessings, That should make me feel whole, There's nothing you can say, That I haven't already said, You see, I already know, It's all in my head, But that never stops the ache, Or the urge to end it all, Every day I war with myself, Praying, in this battle I don't fall.