My Turbulent Calm

I see the wind And hear the sun And when it hurts I have such fun I know not when But the where is sure The reasons are clear Though fully obscure Thoughts I suffer The long night through Bring such comfort How is this true Confusion reigns Within thoughts clear And peace so far And yet so near I can feel it Though I’m completely numb My mind subtracts To find the sum The answers are certain The questions unclear How much longer Must I remain here