My Thoughts On Life

MY THOUGHTS ON LIFE IF I WERE TO TELL YOU NOW THAT I WAS A HAPPY PERSON ALL THROUGH MY LIFE,I WOULD BE LYING.I WONT GO BACK TO MY CHILDHOOD DAYS,SOME PEOPLE DONT LIKE LONG STORYS AND I AM ONE OF THEM.I WILL START MY STORY BACK 7 YEARS AGO. WHEN I TOOK SICK WHILE OUT CAMPING IN THE COUNTRY.I WAS TAKEN TO THE DOC AND WAS TOLD I HAD TO GO ON DAILYSIS.ONLY 15 % OF MY KIDNEYS WERE WORKING,SO THEY PUT A SHUNT IN MY ARM AND 1 YEAR LATER IN AUGUEST I WAS PUT ON DAILYSIS.RIGHT FROM THE START THE MACHINE DID NOT LIKE ME AND I HATED THE MACHINE TIME AFTER TIME I,D COME HOME CYING.IN AGONY .THE MACHINE JUST BEAT ME UP.ANYWAY I WILL JUMP AHEAD TO LAST YEAR, IN JULY OF 20006 I WAS TAKEN TO ST JOHNS WITH A VERY BAD INFECTION IN THE SHUNT IN MY ARM.I WAS PUT ON DAILSIS 5 DAYS IN A ROW TO GET MY BLOOD CLEANED.ON FRIDAY I ASKED THE DOC COULD I GO HOME.HE FLATLY SAID NO .I WAS 5 HRS AWAY FROMMY HOME AND IF ANYTHING WAS TO HAPPEN I MAY NOT LIVE TO GET BACK TO CITY.LITTLE DID I KNOW WHAT WAS IN STORE FOR ME THAT DAY,AFTER COMMING OFF OF DAILYSIS THEY BOUGHT ME BACK TO MY ROOM.CHANGE MY DRESSING.MY HUSBAND CAME OVER AND LEANED OVER ME.I THOUGHT HE WAS GOING TO KISS ME,BUT THE LOOK IN HIS EYES SCARED ME.AND HE BEGAN TO SAY TO ME .I HAVE BAD NEWS FOR YOU.RIGHT AWAY I PANICED.I STARTED TO CRY AND SAY NO NO PLEASE DONT TELL ME.I FELT SO STRONG THAT WHAT WAS COMMING WAS BAD.I PUSHED HIM AWAY.AND TRYERD NOT TO LISTEN.THEN HE TOLD ME .OH MY GOD HOW CAN I SAY THIS.HE SAID DARREN DIED LAST NIGHT.I SCREAMED AND SCREAMED.MY SON WAS MURDERED AND HERE I WAS LYING IN A HOSPITAL BED USELESS,AND COULD NOT EVEN GET TO SAY GOOD BYE TO HIM.MY THOUGHTS ON LIFE ARE VERY CONFUSING,BUT GOD KEEPS ME STRONG TO CONQUEAR MY STORMS AND I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART