Ann Hart Poet I do not know?

My Thoughts On Life

MY THOUGHTS ON LIFE
 
IF I WERE TO TELL YOU NOW THAT I WAS A HAPPY PERSON ALL THROUGH MY LIFE,I WOULD 
BE LYING.I WONT GO BACK TO MY CHILDHOOD DAYS,SOME PEOPLE DONT LIKE LONG 
STORYS AND I AM ONE OF THEM.I WILL START MY STORY BACK 7 YEARS AGO. WHEN I 
TOOK SICK WHILE OUT CAMPING IN THE COUNTRY.I WAS TAKEN TO THE DOC AND WAS 
TOLD I HAD TO GO ON DAILYSIS.ONLY 15 % OF MY KIDNEYS WERE WORKING,SO THEY PUT 
A SHUNT IN MY ARM AND 1 YEAR LATER IN AUGUEST I WAS PUT ON DAILYSIS.RIGHT FROM 
THE START THE MACHINE DID NOT LIKE ME AND I HATED THE MACHINE
TIME AFTER TIME I,D COME HOME CYING.IN AGONY .THE MACHINE JUST BEAT ME 
UP.ANYWAY I WILL JUMP AHEAD  TO LAST YEAR,
IN JULY OF 20006 I WAS TAKEN TO ST JOHNS WITH A VERY BAD INFECTION IN THE SHUNT 
IN MY ARM.I WAS PUT ON DAILSIS 5 DAYS IN A ROW TO GET MY BLOOD CLEANED.ON 
FRIDAY I ASKED THE DOC COULD I GO HOME.HE FLATLY SAID NO .I WAS 5 HRS AWAY 
FROMMY HOME AND IF ANYTHING WAS TO HAPPEN I MAY NOT LIVE TO GET BACK TO 
CITY.LITTLE DID I KNOW WHAT WAS IN STORE FOR ME THAT DAY,AFTER COMMING OFF OF 
DAILYSIS THEY BOUGHT ME BACK TO MY ROOM.CHANGE MY DRESSING.MY HUSBAND 
CAME OVER AND LEANED OVER ME.I THOUGHT HE WAS GOING TO KISS ME,BUT THE LOOK 
IN HIS EYES SCARED ME.AND HE BEGAN TO SAY TO ME .I HAVE BAD NEWS FOR YOU.RIGHT 
AWAY I PANICED.I STARTED TO CRY AND SAY NO NO PLEASE DONT TELL ME.I FELT SO 
STRONG THAT WHAT WAS COMMING WAS BAD.I PUSHED HIM AWAY.AND TRYERD NOT TO 
LISTEN.THEN HE TOLD ME .OH MY GOD HOW CAN I SAY THIS.HE SAID DARREN DIED LAST 
NIGHT.I SCREAMED AND SCREAMED.MY SON WAS MURDERED AND HERE I WAS LYING IN A 
HOSPITAL BED USELESS,AND COULD NOT EVEN GET TO SAY GOOD BYE TO HIM.MY 
THOUGHTS ON LIFE ARE VERY CONFUSING,BUT GOD KEEPS ME STRONG TO CONQUEAR MY 
STORMS AND I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART

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Laurie Ginn November 27, 2008 at 6:02 PM Heavenly Father, when the pain is too much to bear, bear it for us. When we only see darkness bring the light. In our weakness bless us with your strength. When we can no longer stand, please Lord carry us. I cannot even imagine the depth of your pain. God bless Ann's body with healing and her heart restored. I pray God put you on the hearts of many and that you and your family will have continuous prayer. In Christ, Laurie

Michael Torres November 27, 2008 at 1:43 PM To me in your loving comments and you have blessed all those that have lookied upon your word's inspired byGod. If their is anything that I may do to lessen the pain or hurt please ask it of me. I will be there to lift you up and to give of myself with your husbands permission. God has put you hear to touch the lost with your christian love and poetry. I for one can attest to that.May you and your's be blessed abundantly Your christian friend Michael

Michael Torres November 27, 2008 at 1:36 PM Ann this is very touching. I felt yourpain and your agony. I will pray for you. You have been through so much when I think of the miniscule problems that I have compared to yours. The God that we serv will heal us and bring us closer to him in all of this. I will pray for your healing and your lovingcaring heart for other's. I am deeply sorry for the loss of your son. I know he was a special boy because he had a mother thatall son's dream of having that is you Ann. You have been a blessing